Burnout is heavy.

Restlessness, guilt and shame.

Burnout is restless because there is a great need to keep going, doing, and reaching the expectation of someone, whether from self, others or God.

Guilt is heavy on the shoulders. A sense of not good enough in the doing, and needing to do better.

Shame is connected because burnout makes one want to hide, withdraw and not to be seen.

Burnout like grief, is hard to understand, a rollercoaster of emotions.

When I hit burnout, one morning I found myself weeping for three hours non-stop. I was wondering what was happening to me. I had a deep sense of loss, sorrow and grief.

It was like I was walking in a really dark tunnel where I knew light would come but it felt very far away. It was the dark night of burnout. A deep sadness which it was like I lost something, loss of strength, loss of ability, loss of motivation, loss of self and identity.

Burnout took away my passion and enthusiasm, it stole my joy and ability to enjoy life in that season. Yet there was a glimpse, that hope will come and take me out of the dark night of burnout.